The curious case of Mickey Rowe

Dear Readers,

I am Mickey Rowe and I am so honored to get to play Christopher Francis Boone and represent the autistic community at the incredible and beautiful Indiana Repertory Theatre (IRT) and Syracuse Stage, in THE CURIOUS INCIDENT OF THE DOG IN THE NIGHT-TIME, directed by Risa Brainin. You may ask yourself, what is an autistic doing working at language-based theatre companies? I often ask myself that question. But I believe that in theatre, my “weakness” is one of my strengths.



If you see me walking down the street, I most likely have headphones on. I nearly always wear a blue t-shirt—v-neck so nothing touches my neck. And I don’t wear coats or jackets when it’s cold out, which drives my wife crazy. I was late to speak, but I invented my own incredibly detailed sign language to communicate. I had speech therapy all through elementary school and occupational therapy all through middle school.

There is a tension between everything that I am and everything that might be conventional for an actor. This is the same tension that makes incredible theatre. No one wants to see something if it is too comfortable. Every performance should have a tension between what feels easy and what feels risky.  

I am also legally blind—autism is often linked with vision or hearing problems—so I can’t perform very well in cold readings. If given a few days before an audition, I always memorize sides so I don’t read them off the page. I enlarge scripts so they are twice as big, just like all of my textbooks and tests were enlarged in school. I will often secretly record the first read-through of a play on my cell phone, hidden in my pocket, so that I can learn my lines and study the script by listening; my eyes give out after about fifteen minutes of looking at a page. But because I know this, I get off book damn fast. Often before the first rehearsal.

Autistics use scripts every day. We use scripting for daily situations that we can predict the outcome of, and stick to those scripts. My job as an autistic is to make you believe that I am coming up with words on the spot, that this is spontaneous, the first time the conversation has ever happened in my life; this is also my job on stage as an actor.

For instance, at a coffee shop:

Me: Hi, how are you doing today? (Smile.) Can I please have a small coffee? Thank you so much! (If it seems like more conversation is needed) Has it been busy today?

Barista: (Any barista response.)

Me: Oh yeah? Is it nicer when it’s busy or when it’s slow? Have a great rest of your day!

Always stick to the script. It makes things infinitely easier.


Or playing Edmond in King Lear,

Wherefore should I

Stand in the plague of custom, and permit

The curiosity of nations to deprive me . . .

When my dimensions are as well compact,

My mind as generous, and my shape as true . . . [?]

It’s really no different. They’re lines I’ve learned, that I say often, but I’m making you believe they are mine, particular to this specific moment.

These all may seem like reasons why I should never be an actor. But acting is a dichotomy. A tension between what is safe and what is dangerous. What is known and what is unknown. What’s mundane and what’s exciting.

There is a tension between everything that I am and everything that might be conventional for an actor. This is the same tension that makes incredible theatre. No one wants to see something if it is too comfortable. Every performance should have a tension between what feels easy and what feels risky. When a grand piano is gracefully lowered out of a window by a rope onto a flat bed truck, slowly spinning and dangling, the tension in the rope is what everyone is watching. In theatre, the performer is the rope, making the incredible look graceful and easy, making the audience complicit in every thought, every tactical switch. When the rope goes slack, the show is over.

I put my dichotomies to work for me. It’s about doing the work and being in control so the audience trusts you to lead them, and then being vulnerable and letting the audience see your soul. The skill, study, and training help create the trust. The challenges make the vulnerability. You need both of them. As an autistic I have felt vulnerable my entire life—to be vulnerable on stage is no biggie.

With autism comes a new way of thinking; a fresh eye, a fresh mind. Literally, a completely different wiring of the brain.

Being in front of an audience of 500 or 2,890 people is very easy for me. The roles are incredibly clear, logical, and laid out. I am on stage; you are sitting in the seats watching me. I am playing a character, and that is what you expect, want, and are paying for. The conversations on stage are scripted, and written much better than the ones in my real life. On the street is where conversations are scary—those roles aren’t clear.


Sure, there are lots of things working against me at any given time. According to the CDC 1 in 7 Americans have a developmental disability and people with disabilities make up the largest minority in the United States. According to the 2010 census, 20% of the U.S. population has a disability.

Yet according to the recent Ruderman  Family Foundation Report, on stage and screen disability has an astounding 2% representation rate. The worst part being that 95% of that 2% is made up of non-disabled actors portraying disabled characters. This leaves a 0.1% percent representation rate for actual disabled actors. The rate is even lower for actors with developmental disabilities like autism.

Disabled people also have a 66% unemployment rate (only including those actively seeking work) which is higher than that of any other protected group.

This means all too often when we learn about autism on TV, in the movies, or on stage we are learning about autism from others instead of going straight to the source and learning from autistic adults.

But that is why it is even more important that young actors with disabilities see role models who will tell them that “If you are different, if you access the world differently, if you need special accommodations, then theatre needs you! The world needs you!

IF YOU WANT TO WATCH : Curious Incident runs September 22 – October 15 at Indiana Repertory Theatre (IRT) and October 25 – November 12 at Syracuse Stage. It is directed by Risa Brainin. Tickets at and
Thank you
Mickey Rowe
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Posted in Motivational on June 05 at 02:24 PM

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